Sometimes it's not hard to know God's will for our lives. We just have to live our lives according to how He wants us to. Whatever plans He has for us, it is always hard when we come up with "I know this is His will, but why don't He show me how or when?" I've been struggling with this for almost a month now and I'm still waiting for things to unfold. Waiting for the answers to all my "whens" and "hows".

Last week I was offered what I can almost say "a dream job", a job that I've always wanted to try such as handling office stuff and travel opportunities at times to different countries. Wow! I was amazed by the opportunity and offer. Being myself, I thought "what a responsibility!!!" It scares me. I'm scared to handle things all by myself. I'm scared to lead and I'm scared of challenges. I was being paranoid imagining handling so many things. Huh!! Then I came across reading about a relative of mine, Daphne Iking. I wonder how she managed herself out there, literally under the spotlight, hosting and appearing on TV. How can she handle all that stressful appointments and fans?? Well, compare to what I will be doing (IF), mine equals to nothing. It's easy, it's a piece of cake. Oh well, whatever...but I'm not going to accept this job offer. I've prayed about it and slept and even dream about it. Somehow, I don't feel a strong calling here. But what I'm facing now is another dilemma that contributes to my 3 lines on my forehead. I'm waiting for God to show me what to do and how I should deal with it. I keep telling myself "trust God, stop worrying." Please...tell me that too! :wink:

I'm almost done with school, 3 more days before the year ends for International school's academic calender. Yay!! 

I'd rather sit for a test than making a test. As a student, you'll not even think of how hard it is for the teacher to prepare a test. All you think is what will be in the test and whether or not you can answer the questions. As a teacher, I'm really struggling with having to prepare 6 exam papers. Tests are not bad, but exam is another headache. After taking Measurement in Education course, I'm so picky in wording my questions and also in selecting types of questions for my papers. You'll never know when students are going to complain and worst thing is if parents complain. How I wish that all text books comes with tests and exams but unfortunately some don't, actually all of the textbooks that I'm using don't have such a thing!

Did I tell you about what kept me busy last week? Practices after practices! It rained almost the whole day last week and this didn't help at all especially with the traffics. Traffics in Bangkok are really bad bad bad! Some of my friends and I had to go to different spots, stopped at different places just to look for a taxi that actually needs to earn more! Taxis are mean sometimes especially during rainy season. They just don't stop for no reason and their body are indeed TAXIS. They just speed infront of you without any passengers and give you that look which means "NO NO, MAI PAI!!" Sometimes because of their speeding, they leave you with lots of yucky,dark, unyummy splashes!

The concert? It was quite an experience. Go see pictures in my flickr.

Today I got my Kimchi delivered and there's Kim Chi soup as FOC. You must try Kim Chi Soup. It's served cold.

Ms. Mashimaro signing off.

Hoola...! It's good to be on TV hahaha! The night after the graduation, some of my Thai friends smsed me and said "congratulations...I saw you on TV!" Eh Dee, we're on TV did you kneow datttt??? Hehe! Apalah..at one moment getting close to the princess I thought I was sharing her fame tsk..tsk..tsk! But (from Nanny McPhee "BUT - is not a sentence.")I didn't screw up, good thing.

The long weekend was really refreshing. It got some of us out of the spotlight city into the starlight town. Well, the practices for the royal princess ceremony wasn't pleasant so to speak but it paid off after the long hours we spent freezing in the auditorium. This was last Thursday.

Beautiful Friday was spent with friends, old friends, new friends, middle friend..Despite of the bad hair blow I got in Saraburi, the ride was good. The night was not so bad, but the sermonette was quite a sermon, someone said so too! Juji, Roy and I had KFC past midnight - 2 pieces of chicken fed 3 mouths.

Wait, oops...time to go to school...i'm late! Shippa blogging!! Will continue...

Ok..here's the continuation..Sabbath morning May 13, we were all happy (worship, breakfast, dress-ups,etc) and went off to church. Haven't experienced Sabbath in MC for a long time already. It feels really good to be there. Then came the lunch, then the sacred concert which was awesome, and the Malaysian potluck (the best part)! Parents, old and new friends, foods, chit-chats, pictures, chit-chat again, huh...I thought for once I was updated with my surroundings.

Sunday was the day. Was I nervous thinking about the steps..thank God it went all well, all well. The van we took together with Oscar's parents and some friends was really a blessing. Chances were that we have to wait or stay and go back to BKK the next morning! I missed Mendelssohn's practice today. We are getting paid know..

Ah...another day...another day...

How I wish tomorrow is public holiday so that I don't have to do everything tonight. I am really really exhausted right now and all I could think of now is to knock the sack! Damn summary reports, damn packing, damn working days...

Going for a long graduation weekend in MC. Hope it will be a good one!