Sometimes it's not hard to know God's will for our lives. We just have to live our lives according to how He wants us to. Whatever plans He has for us, it is always hard when we come up with "I know this is His will, but why don't He show me how or when?" I've been struggling with this for almost a month now and I'm still waiting for things to unfold. Waiting for the answers to all my "whens" and "hows".

Last week I was offered what I can almost say "a dream job", a job that I've always wanted to try such as handling office stuff and travel opportunities at times to different countries. Wow! I was amazed by the opportunity and offer. Being myself, I thought "what a responsibility!!!" It scares me. I'm scared to handle things all by myself. I'm scared to lead and I'm scared of challenges. I was being paranoid imagining handling so many things. Huh!! Then I came across reading about a relative of mine, Daphne Iking. I wonder how she managed herself out there, literally under the spotlight, hosting and appearing on TV. How can she handle all that stressful appointments and fans?? Well, compare to what I will be doing (IF), mine equals to nothing. It's easy, it's a piece of cake. Oh well, whatever...but I'm not going to accept this job offer. I've prayed about it and slept and even dream about it. Somehow, I don't feel a strong calling here. But what I'm facing now is another dilemma that contributes to my 3 lines on my forehead. I'm waiting for God to show me what to do and how I should deal with it. I keep telling myself "trust God, stop worrying." Please...tell me that too! :wink:

I'm almost done with school, 3 more days before the year ends for International school's academic calender. Yay!!